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LIVING WITH CANCER

by Anonymous

04 March 2019 at 10:58

Bad start to the year

I am sat here wondering what will happen at my appointment tomorrow with the Breast surgeon. I ask the question, why me again? Is it going to be a diagnosis I don't want to hear and will I find out tomorrow or will it be more tests?

The later part of last year I was diagnosed with mild heart failure at the age of 52 and they think the chemotherapy caused it. A small price to pay for my life as if I hadn't had chemo I wouldn't be here. The 1st appointment with the heart specialist, she sent me for more tests which included blood tests, an echo and just recently a stress echo and an MRI on the 14th of March.

The blood tests included a D Dimer a test that looks for clots and the same day I received a phone call asking me to go back to hospital to have a scan ,as the test had indicated I had a clot. I sat waiting the same day for the results and a lovely consultant took me and Stephen in to his office to let us know the results. "I am pleased to say there is no blood clot BUT the scan has shown lesions on your rib cage" He told us he would speak to my Heamatology consultant to see if he wanted to send me for further tests. On the 12th of February I had a bone scan and a week ago I rang his secretary as had not heard anything about the results and she read out a letter which I would receive the next day. Unfortunately your bone scan showed changes in the breasts and ribs!! I am on annual leave for 2 weeks but if you wish to discuss the scan results with me please let my secretary know.

I have had no face to face consultation with anyone so the last week had been unbearable for my family and I.

I have drank every night since the phone call which I know I shouldn't have.

I feel sick with nerves.



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